In my fleeting days on the planet, I have carried a heavy weight of self-contempt for most of my years. I grew up in a blue collar non-Christian home across the street from a steel mill. My parents were good hard working people but not very well equipped in raising children or pulling off a harmonious marriage. I nearly flunked out of High School because of how withdrawn I became after a girlfriend broke up with me in Junior High School. I dropped out of Community College because my motivation level was so low.