~ A True God Story by Jerry Roeder ~
I was a prodigal Christian and
alcoholic for many years. I developed the habit of drinking a fifth of bourbon
every night. Today, I jokingly say that some people would call that a problem. Truth
is, it was destroying my life.
My wife, who was sincerely seeking God,
confronted me several times regarding my drunkenness. She appealed to my faith,
on behalf of our children, the church, and my example to others – but I was
calloused and wouldn't hear her.
Eventually, citing 1 Corinthians 5, she
asked me to move out of our home. I argued like crazy that this passage didn't
refer to married couples. I contended that she was trying to use my behavior as
an excuse to divorce me even though she assured me that she hoped for
reconciliation.
I was committed to proving that she and
the church that supported her decision were wrong. I had grown up with the Bible,
and knew it fairly well. For several months, I used this knowledge to argue
with her, to create confusion, and plant doubt in her mind. Convinced I was
winning the argument, I called her pastor (Greg Schmidt of Calvary Chapel in Jacksonville, NC) and explained to him that the unjust treatment I was receiving was
causing incredible confusion in our home.
I expected to have Pastor Greg on his
heels. Instead, he replied, "You're
right. This confusion is not good, and it's not from God, but from the enemy. We
need to get together and pray about this." I was stunned as I had
expected him to be more defensive, but agreed to meet.
So my wife and I got together with Pastor
Greg, his wife, and a family friend from the church. I had two pages of
notes and scriptures I was going to use to prove that they were wrong, hypocritical,
and needed to back off. The pastor opened in prayer and almost immediately, I came
under the strong conviction of the Holy Spirit. It was like Paul getting
knocked off his horse on the way to Damascus. A deep sense of my own sin came
over me! I hid my notes, ashamed to have written them, and sat quietly while he
talked. I have no idea what he even said; the only thing that registered
to me was that I was the problem.
Afterwards, with no alcohol to numb
me, and in full recognition that I was the one who needed to change, I
finally began to seek the Lord. I started to see the hurt, bitterness, anger, and
drivenness that imprisoned me!
Pastor Greg mentioned the “Inner-Healing Workbook” and asked if I would be willing to work through it. Absolutely! Before he could get the copy to me, I was deep in prayer asking the Lord to show me how I could find this healing that Pastor Greg talked about.
Pastor Greg mentioned the “Inner-Healing Workbook” and asked if I would be willing to work through it. Absolutely! Before he could get the copy to me, I was deep in prayer asking the Lord to show me how I could find this healing that Pastor Greg talked about.
God showed me a pattern of lies in
my life that I'd built like thick medieval castle walls to protect myself from pain and vulnerability. He also revealed
that only His truth could dismantle this formidable fortress and powerfully set me free. As the Holy Spirit started to uncover
the lies I believed, He also brought scriptures into my heart and mind to captivate
and demolish the strongholds that enslaved me (2 Corinthians 10:3-5).
A couple days later, Greg got the
booklet to me. It was an amazing confirmation of what the Lord had begun to
accomplish! It also provided additional scriptural references, guidance, and other
helpful areas to study. A section on "Barriers to Healing" was
especially helpful as it pinpointed the strangleholds that were crippling me so
that God could emancipate me (Galatians 5:1 and 13).
After I worked through the booklet,
I began to use it with other men God brought into my life who had similar
issues. It has been exciting to see that what God did in me He was now
doing through me. What a joy to help others find healing and freedom through
Jesus.
Musical Meditation on Breaking the Chains
Note: The “Inner-Healing Workbook”
is designed to be used in a time alone with God and is available for $5 by emailing
People Resources Team at peopleresources@navigators.org.
It’s a condensed version of chapters 5, 6, and 7 from “A Guide for Listening and Inner-Healing Prayer.”
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